The Mindset of a Mental Patient (And a Few Lighter Asides)


A Personal Poetic Journey Through The Mental Health Minefield
By Christopher Fairweather

ISBN: 978-1-84747-304-2
Published: 2007
Pages: 143
Key Themes: poetry, bullying, asperger's syndrome, depression, paranoia, hearing voices, obsessive compulsive disorder, prejudice, change



This book is a collection of poetry and prose, of seriousness and wit, of raw emotion and considered debate.
The book is designed to show to the reader what it is like to live with problems of mental health; how people with problems like this can be treated unfairly and with prejudice by those around them, and how that prejudice can affect the sufferer in the long term.
Essentially the book is trying to make the reader think, and educate them in what living with mental health problems can be like. The book also tries to change the way the uninitiated think about mental health problems.

About the Author

For some years now Christopher Fairweather has been writing poetry about his complex and varied experiences, both of illness and of other people, and he has been performing them in front of audiences at local poetry groups in the Hampshire area. These groups include the Salisbury Poetry Cafť, the Hanger Farm Poets corner in Totton, and the Test Valley Poets meetings each month. He has also performed further afield in Birmingham but this is his first published work which includes both poetry and other reflections.

Book Extract

Though I did not realize it at the time, that day when I was given this Bible would change my life forever. It is true to say that my problems did escalate when I read the Bible, but I do not blame religion for my problems. In some ways it was an extension of a condition I have had since I was a baby, but did not find out about until 2006. This condition is known as Aspergerís Syndrome.

Aspergerís Syndrome has been described as Ďhaving a dash of autism.í Many sufferers can have specialist skills in many fields such as being brilliant artists, writers and many other things as well, but we often come across as rather eccentric, strange or slightly weird or a loner. The condition was not officially recognized until 1993, and before this time many sufferers were simply thought of as eccentric, but if you want to be accepted at school, eccentric is not the thing to be. At school in order to fit in you often have to be Ďcool.í This was something I was never interested in being, and I would say as much to my peers. This with hindsight was perhaps not the best thing to do, and I got a lot of stick and was bullied a lot because of it. This next poem sums up how I felt and how I was treated because of my views:

Uncool and Proud of It

Iím uncool and proud of it,
I believe thatís the way.
Iím uncool and proud of it,
And thatís how Iíll stay,
For in coolness thereís sneering
And pressure to conform,
To be things you donít want to be,
And that is the norm.

To be cool at school,
You have to act like your peers,
Or endure their taunting,
Like I did for years.
But they were the cool ones,
And they caused all the trouble,
And as I wouldnít conform,
They reduced me to rubble.

But they didnít succeed
In making me live life their way.
ďIím uncoolĒ I shouted,
ďAnd thatís how Iíll stay.
Iíll do the things I want to,
Not just whatís cool.
Iíll live life my own way,
And not to your rule.
So please say Iím an anorak,
I really donít care,
If I want to stare at trains,
Iíll do it, SO THERE.
Iím not hurting your lives,
By doing what I do,
So why do you bully me?
Whatís in it for you?

And youíre not going to break me,
No matter how hard you try.
I do the things I want
While you live a lie.
You might make me feel sad,
But I wonít give in,
And no matter how you try,
You will not win.Ē

So Iím uncool and proud of it,
And will be forever,
While those who want cool
Are at the end of their tether,
Trying to keep up
With whateverís in fashion,
Even though deep down
They hate it with a passion.

I say,
ďJoin the uncool army,
We do what we please.
We donít taunt all others,
To bring them to their knees.
We just get on with what we want,
And so could you.Ē
And if the we all did that,
Weíd all be happier too.


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