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Surviving Paranoid Schizophrenia


By John Brown

ISBN: 978-1-84991-960-9
Published: 2013
Pages: 82
Key Themes: Mental Health, Paranoid Schizophrenia


This book is for anyone with an interest in paranoid schizophrenia. It gives an outline of the authorís life prior to him having schizophrenia. Then it gives details of his three very severe bouts of illness with this devastating mental illness. It also details his periods of being well, the psychiatric treatment that he received at hospital and his efforts to stay well on his prescribed medication. The book is an effort to describe the career of a paranoid schizophrenic patient, loosely written in the style of an academic case study on this subject.

The book describes the voices, hallucinations and paranoid delusions that are characteristic of paranoid schizophrenia. It also offers some hope that those with this mental illness can recover from their periods of schizophrenia, and live relatively normal lives, as long as they continue to take their medication, which is an essential part of any recovery programme. The book can contribute to an understanding of paranoid schizophrenia among mental health professionals and sufferers alike.

About the Author

John Brown was born in London, England in 1968. He attended primary school in north London until he was 10, when his family moved to west London and he completed his primary education there. He attended secondary school in Kensington, west London from 1979 Ė 1984. He left secondary school at 16 with 3 GCSE qualifications.

He worked in various jobs in the catering trade and on building sites in the construction industry around London. At the age of 21 he travelled to Asia and started teaching English in Thailand. He lived in Asia until he was 30. While in Asia, he got married and his daughter was born in Bangkok in 1991, when he was 23. John started studying at university as a mature student at the age of 27, and graduated with his first diploma in Education in 1998.

He got divorced in 1998, and went to teach English in Istanbul, Turkey, between the ages of 31 to 32. John then returned to London to complete his M.A degree course in teaching English, which he graduated from with his M.A, when he was 35. He also taught full time in a college in north London during this time, to support himself on his studies. John then returned to teach English in Asia until he was 36. After teaching in Asia, he did a mountain biking tour of Greece, which lasted for a year and a half. John then returned to London and taught in a further education college for a year.

He studied for his university of Cambridge teaching certificate when he was 38, and then went to teach in Hong Kong for four years, where he also studied for his university of Cambridge diploma in teaching. After teaching in Hong Kong, John went to teach at a university in Saudi Arabia for a year and a half. John had been interested in travelling and seeing the world, since he was a teenager, and teaching has enabled him to fulfil this ambition.

John has been hospitalised with schizophrenia 3 times. Once, for a month, in June 2000 at the age of 32. He was then also hospitalised the following year at the age of 33 after going on a tour of France, Spain and Portugal, from which he returned extremely ill. The last time John was hospitalised was at the age of 37 in 2005. He was sectioned by psychiatrists to be detained in hospital for 6 months. During this third detention in hospital, John was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia by his doctors. John has now been taking his medication daily for 7 years without missing a day. He feels that this is now the key to staying well and maintaining his working life and career as a teacher.

Book Extract

The First Signs of Schizophrenia?

My wife getting custody of my daughter, my daughter now permanently residing with my wife and me not having access to her, completely destroyed me emotionally and mentally. In addition, I had lost my job at my school in Bangkok because I had had an affair with Sue and I found out that my dissertation was a fail because I hadnít carried out my university professorís instructions to re-write parts of it that were unsatisfactory. I was only to receive a post graduate diploma in Education and not the full M.Ed degree that Iíd expected to get after all. My whole life seemed to have just fallen apart on all fronts: job, marriage, educational career and my fatherhood relationship with my daughter. I sat in my little rented room and became more and more depressed as the months went by, without seeing my daughter and without having graduated from university with a full Masterís degree. It was all extremely depressing for me. Iíd spent months alone in my room continually traumatizing, thinking, missing and worrying about my daughter. I would stare at the walls for hours on end full of tears, sadness and depression. I spent hours on end sobbing about her.

Finally, the mental pressure of all the months of trauma suddenly snapped and ripped something inside my brain, which I distinctly felt. I was kneeling on the floor of my room praying with my Bible open on the floor and my head resting on it, face down. I was also holding a knife to my own throat, on the brink of suicide, with a tremendous throbbing pain of sadness in my head, when suddenly I felt a huge rip inside my brain and a voice saying ĎI hate you Jesusí and I saw 2 angels descending from heaven and pulling my soul out of my body through my head, which was exploding with pain. They then carried my soul with them up to heaven, which I saw outside my window, and then I saw that my soul had entered heaven with them. Amazingly, I found that I could look up and see heaven in a spiritual way for the first time in my life.

By now, it was the end of 1998 and I hadnít seen my daughter for about 4 months. I was sure I was going to have a heart attack and die from all the pain, stress, depression, sadness and mental and emotional trauma that I was going through. I was going through a complete mental and emotional breakdown and cracking up completely. I believed that God had taken pity on the suffering of my spirit, and had sent angels down to collect it and take it to heaven. I then began regularly to see and hear angels talking to me from heaven. I also started to believe that I was really Jesus Christ in the second coming as described in the book of Revelation in the Bible because of all the spiritual voices that I could hear that I imagined were coming from heaven directly to me. I imagined that I was receiving messages from God directly from heaven.

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